nycdaug Chapter 143 The Prison of Memories
Chapter 143 The Prison of Memories
Jiang Ciyou found herself trapped in a vortex that she couldn't escape. The memories of her husband followed her like a shadow, haunting her all the time. Every careless moment could become the fuse of painful memories, pulling her back to that dark time.
That day, the sun shone through the window onto the floor of the room, forming patches of golden light. Jiang Ciyou woke up from her sleep, but her eyes were filled with confusion and fatigue. She stared blankly at the ceiling, and her mind involuntarily recalled every bit of her past with her husband.
She recalled the spring when they met. The cherry blossoms in the park were falling like snow. She was walking under the trees and accidentally met his eyes. At that moment, it seemed as if time had stopped. The tenderness and smile in his eyes made her heart sink instantly. They began to date frequently, watching movies, eating, and shopping together. Every moment was filled with sweetness and happiness.
Memories flooded in like a tide, and Jiang Ciyou's eyes gradually became moist. She thought back to the eve of her wedding, when she was happily preparing for the wedding, choosing her wedding dress, and imagining the moment when she walked towards him in a white wedding dress, her heart was filled with longing for her future life. She had put so much effort into this wedding, and carefully planned every detail, just to give him a perfect wedding and a happy family.
However, reality dealt her a heavy blow. On her wedding night, when she was wearing the wedding dress she had always dreamed of and sitting in the bridal chamber waiting for her husband to return, she received a text message from him. The cold words on the message pierced her heart like a sharp blade: "I'm sorry, I'm leaving, I'm with her." At that moment, Jiang Ciyou felt that her world collapsed in an instant. She couldn't believe what she saw, and her heart seemed to be torn into countless pieces.
Since then, Jiang Ciyou's life has fallen into endless darkness. She locked herself in her room all day, crying and unwilling to contact anyone. She felt that she was the stupidest person in the world, being betrayed by the person she loved the most. Those sweet memories have now turned into unspeakable pain in her heart.
In order to get rid of this pain, Jiang Ciyou started shopping crazily. She shuttled through the major shopping malls in Paris and bought whatever she saw, as if only in this way could she temporarily fill the emptiness in her heart. She bought expensive clothes, shoes and bags one after another, but when she returned to the hotel and looked at the piles of shopping bags, she did not feel any joy in her heart.
In addition to shopping, Jiang Ciyou also participated in various social activities. She shuttled between various parties and dinners, talked and danced with different people, but she was always lonely in her heart. She found that no matter how hard she tried, she could not really integrate into these occasions. She was just a lonely soul wandering among the crowd.
Night is the time that Jiang Ciyou fears the most. Whenever she lies alone in bed in the dead of night, those painful memories will come flooding back like a tide and drown her. She will think of her husband's promise to her, every beautiful moment they spent together, and then think of his betrayal, and an uncontrollable pain and anger will surge in her heart. She often wakes up in the middle of the night, with tears soaking her pillow.
Jiang Ciyou began to feel confused about her future with Lu Jingchen. She didn't know if she could really let go of the past and start a new relationship. She was afraid of being hurt again and afraid that she would fall into that painful abyss again. She felt like a wounded bird, longing to fly but afraid of being shot by the hunter's arrow again.
This contradictory mentality made Jiang Ciyou feel very painful. She didn't know how to face Lu Jingchen. She felt that she was unfair to him. Lu Jingchen loved her so much and he had given a lot for her, but she couldn't respond to his love wholeheartedly. She began to deliberately keep a distance from Lu Jingchen. She was afraid that her emotions would affect him.
However, Lu Jingchen did not give up. He noticed something was wrong with Jiang Ciyou, and he knew that her inner pain had not completely dissipated. He began to take more care of her emotions and tried his best to make her happy. He would accompany her silently and listen to her talk about her troubles; he would take her to some quiet places so that she could relax; he would cook her favorite food for her, hoping to make her feel warm through the food.
However, Jiang Ciyou's mood was still up and down. Sometimes, she would suddenly lose her temper over a small matter, and then fall into deep self-blame. She felt that she was about to collapse, and she didn't know how to get rid of these painful memories.
In this painful struggle, Jiang Ciyou's body began to have problems. She often felt headaches, fatigue, and her appetite was getting worse and worse. Lu Jingchen was very worried about her health. He advised her to see a doctor, but Jiang Ciyou always refused. She felt that there was nothing wrong with her body, but she was in a bad mood.
Days passed, and Jiang Ciyou's condition did not improve. After her friends learned about her situation, they came to persuade her. They told Jiang Ciyou that she couldn't always torture herself like this, and that the past could not be changed. She should learn to let go and face the future bravely. They also said that Lu Jingchen was a very good person and he was worth Jiang Ciyou's cherishment.
Jiang Ciyou was a little shaken after listening to her friends. She began to reflect on her behavior and realized that she couldn't go on like this. She decided to try to adjust her mentality, try to accept Lu Jingchen's love, and start her life again.
So Jiang Ciyou began to try to change herself. She no longer went shopping and participated in social activities like before, but spent more time and energy on herself. She began to learn some new knowledge and skills, such as painting and yoga, hoping to enrich her life and divert her attention through these methods.
During this process, Lu Jingchen has been silently supporting her. He would accompany her to class, give her encouragement and help. He would also take her to some beautiful places for a walk when she was in a bad mood, so that she could relax. With Lu Jingchen's company, Jiang Ciyou gradually felt the beauty of life, and her mood began to slowly improve.
However, whenever she is alone, those painful memories will still come to her mind from time to time. She knows that it is not easy to truly forget the past. But she also understands that only by bravely facing these memories can she truly walk out of the shadows and start her life again.
Jiang Ciyou took a deep breath, sat up from the bed, and looked at the bright sunshine outside the window. She told herself that she must be strong and not let the past affect her life. She decided to cherish the person in front of her and create a beautiful future for them with Lu Jingchen.