nycdaug Chapter 461 Regret Begins
Chapter 461 Regret Begins
The lights were on, and the hustle and bustle of the city gradually settled in the night. Jiang Ciyou dragged her tired body back to the place she once thought she could call home. However, this home was now filled with a depressing atmosphere, making her feel extremely unfamiliar.
When she walked into the living room, her husband was sitting on the sofa watching TV. When he heard her footsteps, he just raised his head slightly, and his eyes no longer had the concern and love they once had. Jiang Ciyou looked at him silently, with an indescribable complex emotion in her heart.
Every time she looked into the eyes of her husband's eyes, it was like a sharp knife piercing her heart. She could not forget the betrayal on the wedding night, and the scar seemed to never heal. She often wondered what she would be like now if she had not chosen to return to him.
Jiang Ciyou slowly walked to the window, looking at the bright lights outside, but her thoughts drifted back to the past. She thought of Lu Jingchen, the handsome man with broad shoulders and narrow waist, who was a wolf and a baby and loved to act like a spoiled child. His gentleness and thoughtfulness, like the spring sunshine, warmed her once cold heart. She missed the days when they vacationed together at the beach, under the blue sky and white clouds, on the golden beach, they held hands, strolled on the edge of the waves, and felt the breeze blowing. Lu Jingchen's smile was so bright, as if it could dispel all the haze. They tasted delicious food together, and shared the bits and pieces of life in the warm restaurant. Those good times have now become an indelible pain in her heart.
At night, Jiang Ciyou lay in bed, tossing and turning, unable to fall asleep. Lu Jingchen's smile and figure kept appearing in her mind. His every expression and every movement were deeply imprinted in her heart. She knew that she could no longer love her husband, and she was just performing her so-called responsibilities and obligations incorrectly. This realization made her feel extremely painful and regretful.
She began to reflect on whether her decision to return to her husband was the right one. Perhaps she was just bound by a false sense of responsibility, thinking that returning to her husband would make up for the past hurt. However, she ignored her true feelings. Her feelings for her husband had disappeared completely in the betrayal on the wedding night, and now all that was left was endless pain and helplessness.
Jiang Ciyou closed her eyes and tried to calm herself down. But her heart was full of contradictions and struggles. She didn't know how to face her current life, nor did she know how to go in the future. She felt as if she was trapped in a dark vortex and couldn't extricate herself.
In this quiet night, Jiang Ciyou's heart is filled with nostalgia for the past and confusion about the future. She doesn't know if she still has the courage to pursue true happiness, nor does she know if she can get rid of her current predicament. But she knows that she can't go on like this, she must make a change.
As the days passed, the relationship between Jiang Ciyou and her husband became more and more tense. They rarely communicated, and even if they did, it was only about trivial topics. Jiang Ciyou felt that the distance between her and her husband was getting farther and farther, as if they were two strangers, living under the same roof but with their own different worlds.
One night, Jiang Ciyou sat alone in her study, looking at the moonlight outside the window, her heart filled with melancholy. She thought of her past dreams and pursuits, all those beautiful visions before the wedding night, now all gone. She didn't know how long she could hold on, and she didn't know if she still had the courage to pursue her dreams.
Just then, her husband came in. He looked at Jiang Ciyou, his eyes full of doubt and dissatisfaction. "What's wrong with you recently? You always look worried." The husband asked.
Jiang Ciyou raised her head and looked at her husband's familiar yet unfamiliar face, feeling bitter in her heart. "Nothing, just a little tired." She replied indifferently.
The husband frowned, obviously dissatisfied with her answer. "Are you hiding something from me?" he asked.
Jiang Ciyou was silent for a moment, then slowly said: "There is no love between us anymore, right?"
The husband's face turned very ugly after hearing her words. "What are you talking about? We are husband and wife, how can we have no feelings?" he said angrily.
Jiang Ciyou looked at her husband's reaction and felt helpless. She knew that her husband was not willing to face the problems between them and he was just avoiding reality. "Our relationship ended on that wedding night. You betrayed me and we can't go back to the past." Jiang Ciyou said firmly.
The husband fell silent after hearing her words. He knew that what Jiang Ciyou said was true, but he was unwilling to admit it. "I know I was wrong, and I regret it. We can start over, right?" He tried to win back Jiang Ciyou's heart.
Jiang Ciyou shook her head, a trace of determination flashed in her eyes. "We can't start over again. I don't love you anymore. There are only responsibilities and obligations between us. This kind of life is a torture for both of us." She said.
The husband looked at Jiang Ciyou with despair in his eyes. He knew that he had lost Jiang Ciyou's heart and their marriage was irreparable. "So what are you going to do?" he asked.
Jiang Ciyou took a deep breath, then said slowly: "I want to leave here and find my own happiness."
The husband's face became even uglier after hearing her words. "You can't leave me! We are husband and wife, you can't just abandon me like this." He said angrily.
Jiang Ciyou looked at her husband's reaction and felt sad. She knew that her husband didn't really love her, he just didn't want to lose her as his wife. "There is no love between us anymore, and staying together will only make us more miserable. I hope you can understand my decision," she said.
The husband was silent for a moment, then slowly said: "If you really decide to leave, I won't stop you. But I hope you can think carefully about our relationship and don't make a decision lightly."
Jiang Ciyou nodded, then turned and left the study. She knew that her marriage with her husband had come to an end, and she had to face reality bravely and find her own happiness.
In the following days, Jiang Ciyou began to think seriously about her future. She knew that leaving her husband was not an easy thing, and she needed to have enough courage and determination. She also knew that the road ahead was full of unknowns and challenges, but she was not afraid. She believed that as long as her heart was full of love and hope, she would be able to find true happiness.
Jiang Ciyou began to pack her belongings, preparing to leave this home that once filled her with hope. She looked at those memories, and her heart was filled with emotion. She knew that these memories would remain in her heart forever, but she could no longer be bound by them. She had to move forward bravely and pursue her own happiness.
Just when Jiang Ciyou was about to leave, she received a letter from Lu Jingchen. In the letter, Lu Jingchen expressed his longing and love for her, and he hoped to see her again and start over with her. Jiang Ciyou read the contents of the letter, and her heart was filled with emotion and warmth. She knew that Lu Jingchen really loved her and he had been waiting for her.
However, Jiang Ciyou was in deep conflict. She didn't know whether she should respond to Lu Jingchen's feelings, and she was afraid of being hurt again. She also didn't know whether she could let go of the past and start over with Lu Jingchen. She felt as if she was in an inescapable dilemma and couldn't make a decision.
At this time, a good friend of Jiang Ciyou came to visit her. Seeing her condition, her friend was filled with worry. "What's wrong with you? You look very unhappy." The friend asked.
Jiang Ciyou sighed, and then told her friend about her situation. After listening to her, her friend was silent for a moment, and then slowly said: "You should bravely pursue your own happiness. There is no love between you and your husband anymore, and staying together will only make you more miserable. And Lu Jingchen really loves you, and he has been waiting for you. You should give him a chance, and also give yourself a chance."
Jiang Ciyou fell into deep thought after hearing her friend's words. She knew that what her friend said made sense. She couldn't live in the shadow of the past forever. She had to face the reality bravely and pursue her own happiness. She decided to respond to Lu Jingchen's feelings and start over with him.
Jiang Ciyou picked up a pen and wrote a letter to Lu Jingchen. In the letter, she expressed her longing and love for him, and she hoped to see him again and start over with him. After writing the letter, Jiang Ciyou sighed softly, she knew that a new life was about to begin.
The author says:
In this journey of life full of twists and turns, Jiang Ciyou gradually understands what she really wants. Her regret is not only a reflection on her past wrong choices, but also the beginning of her maturity and courageous pursuit of happiness. In this process, she will face more challenges and difficulties, but I believe that she will find her own happiness with her courage and wisdom. I hope that readers can also draw strength from Jiang Ciyou's story, bravely face the difficulties and challenges in life, and pursue their own happiness.