nycdaug Chapter 230 I hope it is not a wrong decision
Chapter 230 I hope it is not a wrong decision
"No, I still can't find the vein! Please wait a moment, I'll go find our head nurse." The nurse looked at me apologetically.
"Can we not draw blood?" I looked at the nurse who was about to leave.
"How can that be possible! You need to undergo a full set of examinations after being transferred to another hospital so that the doctor can understand you better!"
I looked at my arm and was about to speak when the nurse hurried away.
"Does it hurt?" Li Xin looked at my arm and then looked at me.
I shook my head “It’s OK…”
"Has it always been like this?" Li Xin said as he touched the bruise on my arm. There were a few needle marks there, caused by blood drawing during prenatal checkups. The nurses couldn't find the blood vessels, which was the biggest headache for them during every prenatal checkup. They had to give me several injections each time.
"I don't want to have blood drawn anymore." I looked at Li Xin.
An older nurse and the young nurse came in.
"Can you not do the blood test first? Her arm is like this, how can you find the blood vessels? I've asked someone to get the previous hospital examination forms, can't you use them?" Li Xin looked at the two people who came in.
"Mr. Li, this is against regulations..." The young nurse looked at Li Xin cautiously.
Li Xin frowned.
"Boss Li, Miss Rongyue's complexion shows that she is deficient in Qi and blood. We must draw blood to check the extent of her anemia. She is carrying twins. If she is anemic, the fetuses are prone to hypoxia. If the anemia is serious, there is a risk of heavy bleeding during delivery. The blood bank needs to prepare blood."
Li Xin's frown deepened.
The head nurse looked at Li Xin.
"But don't worry too much. There's still some time before the birth. Once we check, we'll know what means to use to replenish her. If we can replenish her before the birth, these dangers can be avoided, right? We're all considering the safety of her and the baby. Just try to endure this little pain."
The head nurse said this in a gentle tone and gently pulled my arm up.
I helplessly watched the head nurse turn my arm to find the blood vessel, but still couldn't find the right one after inserting the needle into the skin.
"Grandma's surgery is scheduled for three days later. It's just a routine heart surgery, and it's arranged by the most experienced chief physician. Don't worry too much." Li Xin sat next to me and looked at me.
I looked at Li Xin and said, "I want to go see grandma."
"I'll take you there once you're done with the examination, so just cooperate."
I nodded and frowned. It only hurt a moment when the needle entered the skin, but it was really painful when the nurse moved the needle back and forth to find the blood vessel.
"Why don't you ask where my grandfather is?"
"Is there any need to ask? He must have been sent home by your people."
I smiled.
Grandpa was holding the ultrasound report and seemed to be more reluctant to let it go than I was. I could tell how happy he was and how much he was looking forward to these two children.
"I don't think it's a problem whether Grandpa can fall asleep today. Gong Yi's family is going to have a little princess. If Grandpa is willing to listen to my arrangements and go back obediently, he must be going back to transform the house into a castle to welcome his little princess."
"You are exaggerating."
"Not at all. He was arranging these things with the housekeeper when he left. I heard it all."
I thought about how my grandfather would look, and looked up at Li Xin who was trying to hold back his laughter. We both couldn't help but laugh.
"Let's do this for now. Press the needle hole hard, otherwise the bleeding will get worse." The head nurse put tape on me.
I held down the tape with my right hand.
"You have to press hard! You can't just press lightly because you're afraid of the pain! Your bleeding is so severe, is it because I didn't press properly when we drew your blood before?" The young nurse pressed my hand and told me how much force to use.
"Let me press on her. She can't use the strength in her right hand." Li Xin took my arm and pressed the medical tape.
The nurses were out.
I looked at Li Xin.
"What do you want to say?" Li Xin looked up at me.
"I know grandpa is very happy, but... I don't want to go back to live in grandpa's house..."
"You and grandma's original house is too small. After the baby is born, grandpa will definitely arrange for someone to take care of the baby and you. And your grandma will also need someone to take care of her. How can you possibly live in it?"
"Since you and grandma are back, don't waste your energy rejecting grandpa's kindness. After all, these are his great-grandchildren, and he will definitely feel very sad. Didn't you see that when grandpa saw the ultrasound scans of the two children, he seemed to be several years younger in an instant? Do you have the heart to see him feel lost?"
"Li Xin, I can't go back to that home... I can't look at everything familiar there..."
I paused, and thinking about everything that happened with Mo Chen in the old house, my heart began to feel uncomfortable.
"Give me some more time..."
"What can you do if you are given time? Can you really forget Mo Chen?"
I was silent.
"…Actually, in the past few months, although I was physically tired, I felt particularly relaxed. No one cared who my grandma and I were, there were no family disputes, no one came looking for me, and I didn't owe anyone anything. I took care of my grandma, myself, and the children every day, and was so busy that I didn't have time to think about the people and things in the past. Suddenly I realized that I seemed to have been stuck in a bunch of problems for too long, and I haven't felt so relaxed for a long time. So, if my grandma didn't get sick, I would rather live there for the rest of my life and never want to come back."
"You are avoiding the problem."
"I am escaping, so what!" I looked at Li Xin. "What will happen if I face the problem?"
"Isn't the result the same..."
My relationship with Mo Chen was wrong from the beginning. The things I worried about at the beginning would have the same result whether I faced them or not... just like now...
I have also been brave... and faced...
"Since the result is the same... why can't you let me feel more comfortable... I really don't want to face... the original people and things, the original self, and the problems in the future, the embarrassing situation these two children will face because of me in Gong Yi's house, when I think about these..."
"I'm really tired, Li Xin. I just want to make myself feel better. I also want to be selfish for once."
"If you can really be selfish... you wouldn't be so attached to your grandma and your children. How can you be selfish when you can't let go of so many things?" Li Xin looked at me seriously.
"Besides, you can't deprive children of their right to choose. When they grow up, let them choose whether to live a carefree and ordinary life with you, or accept all the rights and responsibilities given by the Gong Yi family. This is fair to them."
Li Xin held my hand and said, "Don't think too much. The most important thing now is to take good care of yourself and welcome the baby. Leave all your worries to me and Grandpa. We have the ability to protect you, but you have to trust us!"
I swallowed the pain in my heart and said, "...Li Xin...I don't want to be a problem for others..."
“I don’t want my children to end up like me…”
"Why do you think so?"
Li Xin stroked my face and asked me to look at him. "Rongyue, listen carefully, you are not a problem for anyone! On the contrary, with you, everyone can feel at ease and happy. Didn't you see how happy Grandpa was just now? I have never seen Grandpa laugh so happily, and you can clearly feel that it is not fake!"
"You don't know how anxiously each of us has been looking for you during the months you disappeared, not just Grandpa and I. Grandma Jiang, Xu Jiawei, Xiao Hai, Mei Jia and Tao Mei ask me every day if I have found you. They are all worried about you. You said you don't want to be a trouble to others, so you should live a good life by our side and not make us worry, right?"
"Rongyue, I have helped you many times before, and you owe me all of this. I only have one request of you now. Promise me that you will never leave alone again, and let us take good care of you and the children."
I looked up at Li Xin. "Li Xin...you..."
"I know..." Li Xin wiped my tears and interrupted me, "I know you don't want to drag me down. You always want to get me out of your business! I know everything."
"I want to treat you well, and I do it willingly. I don't expect any result from you, so you don't have to feel burdened or stressed. I, Li Xin, am not someone who only knows about love, so don't think too narrowly of me."
Li Xin looked at me and smiled.
“I don’t miss you that much…” I wiped my tears.
"Well, I'll take it as if you agreed to my request. I'll treat the months you disappeared as a vacation and try not to be angry with you."
"You should still be mad at me! Don't be so nice to me."
Li Xin pinched my face helplessly. "…You are the kind of person who will endure hardship without any effort!"
I was immediately amused by his words.
"Hmm! Hiss..."
"What's wrong?" Li Xin approached me nervously.
"It's okay, they're kicking me..." I touched my stomach.
"Look, you are happy, and the children are happy too, how wonderful."
I looked at Li Xin, and Li Xin smiled and his eyes fell on my belly.
I took Li Xin's hand and pressed it gently on my stomach.
"Little guys, this is Uncle Li, say hello to him..."
As soon as I finished speaking, someone kicked Li Xin on the palm of his hand. It was a really heavy kick and I could feel it through Li Xin's hand.
Li Xin's hand trembled as if he had been electrocuted, but he did not dodge.
I looked at Li Xin's expression. There was surprise and joy in his eyes. Then he frowned and looked a little helpless. Finally, he looked up at me with joy.
I smiled and looked at Li Xin. “Isn’t it amazing?”
Li Xin nodded, and he sat closer to me again. Then he gently stroked my belly with his hand, his eyes full of gentle expectation.
I looked at Li Xin's expression and thought of my grandfather's happy look just now.
It’s been a long time since I felt cared for and loved by others…
Maybe coming back is not the wrong decision.